so this year i've made it my "resolution" of sorts to read more books this year. i've never really been huge on reading, i've tried to dip my toes in it many times but i've always struggled with finding things i think i'll like. but i've elected to change my mindset and not worry so much about that, and just read whatever piques my interest.

so the first book on my journey to read more books this year has been paradise logic by sophie kemp. now before i get ahead of myself there's sort of an elephant in the room i should address...

this fucking cover. yeah it's magnificent. ok it's addressed moving on.

this book is described as "surreal" and i feel like that might be the most apt possible word you can attribute to it. that's actually another goal i've had, to get into surreal stuff. i've been trying to watch twin peaks but my crummy adhd screenager attention span has been making it difficult anyway that's not what this is about this is about the book. so yeah, it's surreal. some may even say absurd, or weird, or quirky, or many other adjectives. like a lot of other "surreal" things i found myself feeling i just did not understand it. but like, that's honestly just a personal problem to be honest, i don't think that makes the book bad at all. really, i found myself liking the book a lot, more than i thought i would at first. i'll admit i found the beginning a bit hard to get into, like i was thinking 'okay this girl wants to be the perfect girlfriend or whatever the fuck but when is anything that i care about gonna happen' but after getting like halfway through i just let myself get consumed by the madness. that's the trick to this book, really. i fould the book's voice pretty gripping the whole time though, all the weird shit was just stated so matter-of-factly, you just had to accept it. that and the vulgarity of it, even if i thought all of the events of this story were silly bullshit i think i still would have found the narration entertaining enough to finish it.

it's a good book! i'd reccomend it if you have a good tolerance for silly bullshit. this review kind of sucks i may make it better. my meds wore off in the middle of writing it give me a break.

okay here's some quotes i liked!!!:

"Open the fuck up I have a literal fucking gun"

"Momma sssay momma ssssah mom makusssa. I pretty much only fuck other rare periwinkle garden ssssnakessss wearing ssssunglassses."

"I started to think my life would be a trillion times better if I could do ESP. "Stop thinking about what your life would be like if you had ESP. You don't have ESP.""

"I was about to literally kill myself by punching myself in the face"